Near-death, personality disorders, etc.

[Ascended Mermaid]

So, who has near-death experiences, or has almost witnessed death?

I have. I was standing outside having a smoke, and some stupid-ass pedestrian wasn't paying attention to the traffic. I watched. I didn't say a word. I just watched.

She stopped herself when she realized she was almost hit.

I almost let her get run over. It's at this point that I wonder... should I re-evaluate my personality? Someone almost died today and I would've let it happen.

Maybe I'm just tired, so I'm not as fast vocally as I should be. It dawned on me that I could've said "watch out", but I ignored this instinct, and watched, like watching a flower bloom for the first time.

I don't know what I think of myself. It could've been my fault for not warning her, as much as she didn't pay attention to the oncoming traffic. I stood there like a reaper, waiting to claim my soul. I feel a little sick.

[Ascended Mermaid]

That's... amazing. Sounds like a story I'd make up back when I made up stories about myself; I've lived long enough to have real stories to tell so I don't have to anymore, haha. I don't mean that you made it up, but that's an incredible story! (Abeit cliched, but how can you call that a cliche when it really happens?)

Luckily for me, I'm not into hiking; I hiked once and I was scared shitless just before reaching the peak. Steep rocks and all of that; we're talking about someone with very little guts here. Even with a caribeaner (sp?), a bungee cord, a vest, and a lovely rock wall simulation in a high school gymnasium, I'd freeze with one foot on the third "rock".

Needless to say, I never did pass Phys. Ed.; I love GEDs.

// My theorhetical/hypothetical "outdoors trip" would involve checking out rice fields, topography and that neat thingy rice farmers do for their rice fields. XD Oh, and bamboo forests.

[Ascended Mermaid]

Searches for Ginzan end in greenery, tropics, springs and mines. It's certainly full of nature, yet I suppose I'd theoretically have to see it for myself to grasp its beauty. Pictures may say a thousand words, but they're still not as beautiful as the real thing.



For some reason though, I feel like I'm playing another first person adventure game, and this entrance just screams "come in". XD

[psybuster]

I'll make this short.

Almost got hit by a drunk driver in a parking lot in a supermarket.

Almost drowned.

Personality disorders? I'm probably an incredibly jaded asshole, even though it doesn't really show here. Dunno if that can be called a disorder though.

[Ascended Mermaid]

I can't say I was near-enough to death to call it a near-death experience, but...

- Hung myself.

- Doped up on Sudafed and considered sinking like a rock in the water. Sudafed (back when it still had the drug required to make crystal meth) in large quantities, would make you feel heavy and numb, slow down your mental clock and reflexes, and probably (unproven) make you do stupid things. I only abused it on two occasions. Once to live a "drug-induced childhood" I never had. The last one was to see if drowning would be easier. Of course, the effect wore off by the time I made it to the beach.

Aside from the "disorder" mentioned in the beginning of this thread, I suppose depression and/or/maybe bipolar. I doubt the doctors, and I doubt myself. I avoid the medication thinking that I could just be a hypochondriac.

(Probably the wrong word; I meant the word which definition resembles "a person who claims to have something wrong and gets on medication, without something actually being wrong.")

// Forgot about the numbness from Sudafed. Corrected.

[Yakra]

Unsavory's first story reminded me a lot of this little accident we were in when I was a kid. Back when we were in school, my mom would come and pick us up in her car everyday after we were done and drop a couple of our friends off at their homes too (their houses were in the way). So anyways, we were down to the last person and were merrily chug chugging down the road, when out of no where this STUPID man on a cycle just flew across the road. This is very common here. Everyone thinks they're the Lord of the Roads. Zebra crossings, traffic lights and road signs are for losers. So anyways, Mr. Cyclist flew across the road without warning, straight into our path, got hit bang on, and ended up sprawled on our windshield and his cheap cycle whirring away on our roof. X( And we all thought he had died. So my mom had to deal with three crying and shocked little kids and one angry man who had the audacity to come back to life and start shouting. X( Hmph.

Oh.... that was the unknown man's near death experience by the way. XD I was just thinking of how the person who almost ran over the lady in Unsavory Maggot/Zursh's must be feeling. :'D

I think its very normal, by the way, to just be standing there and looking. It doesn't make you any meaner. Sometimes... one just zones out and continues observing with a 'I'm not a part of this person's destiny' type of mood. And then when the worst happens, you feel horrid. :'D




My own near death experience - I was once plugging a lamp into a socket when the plug sparked and blew up in my hand. My whole life flashed by my eyes in that one second.

If wyrdwad's experience had happened to me though, I would never go near a hiking trail ever, ever again!!!

[Ascended Mermaid]

You must excuse me for bringing up bad times here, of course. *nods* It's the tiredness. Normally, I have a hard time sleeping because I'm angry or upset about history, and it ends when I sleep. It starts again the next time I try to sleep. This is the first all-nighter that has brought this side of me out in the open in a long time, not counting my blog.

I really mean well, but yeah... not in the fondest place in my mind right now.

[FM-77AV]

There was some holiday, where people use fireworks and crap all the time. Well, a friend and I decided to get up on a mountain and lit off some fireworks, and throw some crackers too. He was a little drunk, but not me as I don't (and didn't) drink. Well, it had been raining and the mountain was really slippery of course. Similiar to wyrdwad's story.

Anyway, he thought it would be a great idea to roll down a small bomb-shaped firecracker down the hill (it was really really steep) - this backslash: \ explains the steep-ness. So he walked to the edge. But he didn't stop at the edge, instead he started rolling down the cliff, it almost looked like it was intentional. A tree was growing out of the mountain a couple of meters down from where he fell, and he kept rolling and sliding down the hill, at increasing speed. I thought in my mind, GRAB THE TREE!! GRAB THE DAMN TREEE!!! OH MAN! But I was completely silent, I'm not the yelling type. Well, he tried to grab it, it looked like a very half-hearted attempt however. I guess he was kind of semi unconscious, from the shock of falling down, and being drunk of course. Of course, he failed to grab it and kept rolling and sliding down the hill, REALLY fast, for about ten more meters, then he stopped at a patch of moss that was on the mountain. He was completely still, and silent.

There was this sort of small trail down to that part, and I carefully climbed down there, also not saying a word. When I got close, I saw him lay on the ground, face down, but when I got to him, he turned around and said: "can you climb back up and grab my bag of beers?" He was rather bloody all over, and very dirty from the muddy and wet moss. I just said sure, and went up and grabbed it and then back down. Together we climbed down mountain again (him occasionally moaning) and walked to some of his friend's house where some girl patched him up.

Well, he was fine. Some rather deep wounds and somewhat tattered clothes, but he never even went to the hospital. Nothing serious.

It was scary, but I guess not a real near death experience, even though it seemed like it at the time.

[clement]

Well, I can think of 3 I've had though I'm not too sure the first counts as I was a bit too young to remember so I just know what I was told.

I hadn't even been born yet and everything seemed normal. One day, my mom goes to a routine checkup to see how I'm doing. Now somehow, the doctor had found out that I wasn't doing well after all. Apparently my heart had stopped beating twice. He said that if it were to happen again, I could die. So with that said, my mom decided to give birth to me as soon as possible. She had to have a C-section done to give birth because...I have a large head?
Fortunately, it went well and neither my mom or I experienced any problems from that.

Second time wasn't anything that hasn't been said in this thread already. I was walking along at night going back home when this guy turns the corner quickly and almost ran me over. He stopped in time and got angry but I didn't really pay attention to whatever he said as I was in a hurry.

Third time...well, I was at a friends house. After we were done hanging around there we decided we'd head someplace else and his brother came to pick us up. So we went outside and started to chat for a bit when two men started approaching us from the other side of the street. At first I thought nothing of it, maybe they were friends of the brother, right? The two men then pulled out guns and aimed them in our direction. We all were scared and just went along with what they said. One man was talking to my friends brother while the other kept an eye and a gun on us.
It turns out they wanted a ride for awhile but needed a driver. So while my friend and I were safe; they forced his brother to drive them somewhere. He was gone for about an hour but he came back safely. It turned out he didn't have much gas left in his car so the two men just left.

You know, I'm not sure those other two count either. I didn't get hurt after all. Oh well.

[Justin]

I held my friends wrists to stop the blood after he cut himself. He was beating his girlfriend, and she ran away. In a bout of "feel sorry for me" he tried to off himself, and at the request of his girlfriend, I broke into his house to help him. I have never felt that way in my life. To sit there and stare in someones eyes, and feel disgust and remorse at the same time. Needless to say, its not a fun time.

[Ascended Mermaid]

Oh yeah! I forgot about the mexicans bearing sharpened arrows at me and a friend when I was 8 years old. O.o"

So uh, we were cornered at a fence by three little mexican kids with sharp arrows, yet we escaped. XD

I don't think it really counts as near-death, though... but then again, I roasted a cat when I was 3, so I'm sure those primitive mexican children could've done just as much damage in that instance.

[clement]

Kitty ;_;.
For some reason that reminded how after seeing some chickens killed when I was a kid I couldn't bring myself to eat them later that day. I didn't consciously feel bad about the chickens but I just felt nauseous looking at my plate.

[Ascended Mermaid]

Yeah, I had quite a bit of self-loathing from that. People who say you don't remember anything from when you were 3, be damned! Other things I've done, and remember, from when I was 3:

- Put my mom's contacts in the freezer.
- Played with toy cars with my older brother.
(I often wish that *he* was the one who was allowed to live! I also wish that this memory would stay vivid, but it gets more and more vague with the passing of time.)
- Watched mom beat Wizards & Warriors II at the old house we had built out here, before it had burned down. (I still remember how excited she was, beating it!)
- Played Super Mario Bros. 3, up to World 7. For the longest time, I'd quit at the outside pipe maze level.
- Got a box of hand-me-downs from the then soon-to-be brother-in-law's mother.

Speaking of brothers, there's one that's still alive. He's disowned my family, and I've never met him before. Nobody knows where he lives. Everytime someone even thinks of seeing him, I'm at bad times and trust nobody, not even my own family, and end the search before it could begin.

[Justin]

Your mom beat Wizards and Warriors 2!!!

Man tip your hat to her for me, that game is ninja hard.

[Ascended Mermaid]

I'd completed the entire series, myself. (I don't count the shoddy GB game)

[Justin]

I tried replaying them a while ago, and they have not aged well.

[Ascended Mermaid]

I disagree. They've aged very well. The first, not so much, but certainly the 2nd and 3rd.

[Justin]

Those damn birds piss me off, which is actually the same for any other NES game with birds. Fucking Ninja Gaiden

[Justin]

Its all about that cover art, oh why couldn't they have included Fabio as a hidden character.

[Ascended Mermaid]

The third was awesome in that you could play as a knight, a thief, AND a wizard! It completes the title "Wizards and Warriors". The story is weak, but it shines in Metroidvania gameplay.