Planned purchases, wishlists & game dev. thread

[Ascended Mermaid]

>_>" She hasn't responded as to whether or not she's still going. XD She might be asleep still. >.>" Exciting, yet... graaah! XD How do I know whether or not to get ready?! XD

[Justin]

Just get ready man. If she shows, she shows, if she doesn't, she doesn't.

[Ascended Mermaid]

Of course I will. But not knowing makes me feel... almost claustrophobic. Like the walls are closing in on me. Does that even make sense?

[Justin]

Yeah, it does, but its just the jitters dude. Not knowing whats going on can be unnerving at times, but its all part of the process. Enjoy it for what it is.

[Ascended Mermaid]

Yeah. Just a couple of new buds-ish hanging out -- or not hanging out, depending on what the situation is. *nods* I can handle it.

[Ascended Mermaid]

The verdict? She was sick, most likely -- and probably in bed all day, as she hasn't responded since yesterday afternoon. (She said she'd inform me later on last night.) I ate pizza (a Calzone) without her.

Hmmm... I shouldn't look forward to things. I should just accept them.

[Ascended Mermaid]

Company update! Our software will be upgraded... eventually. Remaining funds required: $434.94

...saving money is hard.

[AllenSmithee]

I may be asking someone out... I really hope to do it, although I'm pretty nervous and have to wait 'til school. I'm probably gonna ask her if she wants to see a movie (Benjamin Button) but if she doesn't wanna see that (I'll just recommend it) then she can decide of course! Although, she may not say yes. All I hope is that if she DOES say no it doesn't affect our relationship outside of a romantic domain. I also worry about how little money I get... If I can't always keep taking her places and giving her things why would she want me?!

[Kimimi]

Dec 30, 2008 21:41:09 GMT -5 AllenSmithee said:

I also worry about how little money I get... If I can't always keep taking her places and giving her things why would she want me?!

Because she actually likes you and isn't shallow?

Why would you want to go out with someone who only stays if you spend money on them?

[Ghis]

A real love doesn't required money .

[Ascended Mermaid]

Aren't you 14, Smithee? Isn't that kindof... early to be dating someone?

// I admit, it was a failure of love, that got me hooked on smoking. I was 18, so I started at the legal age. I needed a vice, some kind of crutch, something to help relieve that teenage angst -- because God knows the God damned pills, from Wellbutrin XL, to Remeron, and possibly my bipolar meds too, didn't help.

I admit, I was a little drastic, a little dramatic... but the cigarettes had actually saved me from someone bad, so I think it was well worth-it. While cigarettes may have shortened my life-span, they've increased my longevity otherwise. I don't think I would've made it this far without them.

See, because I still have something else to invest my love into. Pure nicotine. <3

// In a way, I was committing suicide. As long as I thought that I had succeeded, I didn't want to anymore.

Now I'm looking to reverse suicide, and quit smoking -- if only to go for an alternative such as the cigarette which releases vitamin C, no nicotine, and no long-term health side-effects. That electric cigarette. I can afford it now, but my game development project is far more important to me right now, so I'm holding off. I can undo my suicide at any point.

[Varion]

Dec 31, 2008 7:13:51 GMT -5 Ascended Mermaid said:

Aren't you 14, Smithee? Isn't that kindof... early to be dating someone?

lolwhat? Forget dating, I knew people who were having sex at that age. The relationships generally end in failure but I definitely wouldn't say it's "too early".

[Ascended Mermaid]

True. Some people start very early. I've known some who started a porn stash at 12. Are we really too repressed, or not repressed enough?

[Justin]

Dec 31, 2008 9:09:08 GMT -5 Varion said:

Dec 31, 2008 7:13:51 GMT -5 Ascended Mermaid said:

Aren't you 14, Smithee? Isn't that kindof... early to be dating someone?

lolwhat? Forget dating, I knew people who were having sex at that age. The relationships generally end in failure but I definitely wouldn't say it's "too early".

14 was the year I entered adulthood

Yeah I had a few tumultuous relationships, but I had a ton of "fun" along the way

[Ascended Mermaid]

If that's what you kids call it these days, I entered adulthood prematurely at 12 -- without literally entering anything but some websites maybe.

// I can't stand this. Wanting to have friends, wanting to be in a relationship. I don't like wanting. I was better off hating the world and thinking that everything that ever was or will be, is shit. When can I start hating again? Trust, faith, and hope that someone will be there for me, it makes me emo-nauseous. I don't like wanting to have something good, because I get upset that I don't have it.

[Yakra]

Dec 31, 2008 7:13:51 GMT -5 Ascended Mermaid said:

Aren't you 14, Smithee? Isn't that kindof... early to be dating someone?

My cousin started dating the guy who's now her husband when they were 14 (or was it 13?)! So I think not too young an age to start off! I remember some of my friends back then started going out with some guys around this age too? :'D So... go go Smithee! Go charm that girlie off her feet! XD

(As for me cousin - she and her guy stayed together until they finally got married about... 14 more years later? A happy couple they are!)



...I love how this planned purchases thread has turned into a dating thread!

[Ascended Mermaid]

Well -- I planned on purchasing a dinner or something for my "date" (which got cancelled and I never heard from again) a few days ago... and this is my thread, so I mean, you know, it doesn't bother me.

// M: Something's up.
I: I don't have any friends.
M: Is it because she was a no-show?
I: I already told you. There is no 1+1=2, there's just 1.
M: I wouldn't let someone not showing sway your opinion of everyone else... new year...
I: No fucking friends all year. Jesus fuck, are you even listening?
M: I'm trying to.
I: I have no friends. There's nothing else to figure out. I just stand outside of this god damn house, smoking a god damn cigarette, it's all I ever do with my god damn life.

[AllenSmithee]

I dunno about 14 being too young. I mean, I gotta start someplace and without practice I won't be in shape for when the Major Leagues begin! I understand that it ultimately amounts to little, but what about fun? As long as our break up is a good one and I can continue being friends with her afterwords it is well worth it if you ask me.

[Ascended Mermaid]

I almost find that amusing -- mainly because I've never had a "good" breakup, nevermind one where I stayed friends with my ex's. I wish you luck.

[AllenSmithee]

Heh, thanks. I guess ha ha.

I swear, I'm the type of guy who could handle one. We'll see though won't we. I mean, if I do manage to go out with her in the first place. I'm just wondering how I'll ask her out!

lolwhat? Forget dating, I knew people who were having sex at that age. The relationships generally end in failure but I definitely wouldn't say it's "too early".

I know tons of people who were having sex at twelve. All of them are turning out to be filthy whores, but I still knew them

Dec 31, 2008 2:35:34 GMT -5 Kimimi said:

Dec 30, 2008 21:41:09 GMT -5 AllenSmithee said:

I also worry about how little money I get... If I can't always keep taking her places and giving her things why would she want me?!

Because she actually likes you and isn't shallow?

Why would you want to go out with someone who only stays if you spend money on them?

Well I don't see myself as being worth it if I don't buy her stuff. Most people are like that these days, no? I mean, going on a walk, or just chillin' out maxing acting all cool doesn't really cut it.