What sort of life do you live?

[Incog Neato]

So here goes with my ramblings and reflections of life~! I'll probably jump all over the place as I was never good at writing. XD

I was always the weird kid or the second weirdest kid in elementary school (since it seems like everyone that didn't speak English as a first language were the primary targets of branding), usually the one to get picked last in gym class, and only had a handful of friends.

Contact with some of those friends were kept throughout high school since we went to the same one but after that, pretty much all everyone went their own ways although I know some of them still talk with each other.

I met some new folks in high school but again, I don't talk to them anymore.

Also met new folks in university and college and, well, the same story there.

Then came the NikoNiko! Bulletin Board System, and snail mail pen-pals through some anime magazine, and Internet where, through the old GameFan magazine IRC channel as well as The Art Corner, I encountered some great people and we all stuck together for a couple of years but with the exception of about 2 - 4 people, many of us went our separate ways. Some of us are linked up through IM or Facebook but it's still not the same because we only chat once in a blue moon.

All my relationships (re: dating) have been long distance sans one which was local and lasted only a few weeks because the guy couldn't control himself and tried to forcably kiss me.

A recent one just ended since I just didn't want to move given the circumstances at home and he just landed a great position at his workplace and bought a house not so long ago so ...

At any rate, I never once blamed anyone or ever really got depressed with not having lasting friendships.

I've come to realize that all of this is mostly my doing (except that one friendship where I bitched about here on how the friend always expected everyone to know what she was thinking and wanted at all times) -- despite how I might seem online, being able to "talk to strangers" and all, I'm not outgoing, I don't like to party, I'm not assertive, I don't find it comfortable to make small talk (Seriously, conversations with me can be very short because I have nothing to talk about. :P And when I try, it comes across as being kind of dumb.), I'm not a risk-taker, and I'm not adventurous.

I'm also a follower, not a leader. When I'm put into the position of being a leader, I get very antsy and frustrated because I want things done MY WAY.

But most of all, I seem to make friendships based of my OWN interests -- that is, if we don't share something I like, then, well ... :P

In short, I'm pretty damn introverted with bouts of selfishness thrown in. :P (I mean, I sort of get a little sad when I see no comments at my LiveJournal posts. XD)

However, as it stands, this lifestyle doesn't really bother me but when it comes to thinking about being bed-ridden alone or DYING alone or having next to no one attend your funeral, it's not a happy thought.

I need people in my life -- people that aren't thousands of miles away which are the ones I "talk" to the most. I need them here, physically, but I don't know how to go about breaking out of my shell. =__=

[Ascended Mermaid]

In elementary school, I was the funny looking (and sounding) kid in school. I had bucked teeth and an overbite. Anything and everything I said was open to interpretation; did I say "The Big Cheese" or "Two Bitches"?

In junior high, I became more agressive as an outcast. Violence toward anyone who would cross the line, including teachers.

Most people despised me. When they weren't busy comparing me to the trenchcoat mafia (long before I'd even begun to wear a trenchcoat, mind you), they were usually busy insulting me based off on their ill-perceptions of my physical appearance, sound, and intelligence. I became suicidal, apathetic, didn't care about school. Of course, I had been since the 3rd or 4th grade. Teachers were abusive. Bullies were obnoxious. I would throw my assignments into the dumpster and forget school had ever happened.

Home life was all about my parents arguing. Loving eachother, hating eachother, abusing drugs, cheating, moving out, moving in, the threat of divorce was always open. I was homeschooled for two years -- or rather, I played video games for two years and told school to fuck itself.

I... pretty much just hid behind video games my whole life.

I got braces.

In High School, I kept to myself. Didn't talk to anybody. I pretty much knew what to expect, because my expectations of people were pretty low by that point. My teachers said I wouldn't make it. I eventually got myself kicked out, intentionally, near the end of my second freshman year. I got my GED, and then I rubbed it in their faces because they failed me.

...between then and now, I've had 4 or 5 different jobs, but mostly spent time at home, hiding from people, hating people, making new friendships, breaking old friendships...

...and now I'm here! Was that the story you were looking for?

I'm also a follower, not a leader. When I'm put into the position of being a leader, I get very antsy and frustrated because I want things done MY WAY.

But most of all, I seem to make friendships based of my OWN interests -- that is, if we don't share something I like, then, well ...

In short, I'm pretty damn introverted

When it comes to thinking about being bed-ridden alone or DYING alone or having next to no one attend your funeral, it's not a happy thought.

I need people in my life -- people that aren't thousands of miles away which are the ones I "talk" to the most. I need them here, physically

All of this is true for me. However, could you have guessed that all of my local and long-distance friends are people I've met on dating sites? I haven't necessarily dated all of them, mind you, but I've come pretty close to a lot of them.

[Varion]

Busy and stressful, doing work all day.
Contented and peaceful, playing games and browsing the internet all day.

Pick one depending on how much work there is to do.

[Incog Neato]

May 19, 2010 10:40:13 GMT -5 Varion said:

Busy and stressful, doing work all day.
Contented and peaceful, playing games and browsing the internet all day.

Pick one depending on how much work there is to do.

You hermit too?

[mastermeow]

Hm, interesting. Out of curiosity where are you two from if you don't mind my asking.

I'm 20 (21 on Friday ) and I was born in NY. I grew up in an area mostly inhabited by drug dealers and many members of my extended family themselves were addicts. Some went to jail, others were killed and so my father (a Taino/Italian and chief of our tribe) took in their children and I was to play "big bro" despite my being the middle child of my 9 siblings.

I've always belonged, my family has always welcomed me and despite the many headaches they give me I love them dearly. I've always had friends too, I looked for the dregs, the losers and the people no one liked and got to know them. Sure I've taken a few beatings, but its worth it for friends. lol Loyalty is a biggie for me.

This may be hard to believe, I'm a fairly good looking guy. I've had many boy and girlfriends and am engaged to be married to a lovely Canadian woman.

Nuukou you remind me very much of my fiancee. I hope very much that one day you meet someone you can open up to and especially hope you do not lose faith in people.

[schlagwerk]

Can't believe I'm responding to this.

Growing up I was also the odd kid out. In grade school I was endlessly mocked for playing video games at all and a violent temper (which I later found out was just due to the school I went to. Had I gone to another one that was actually closer to where I lived, I would have been respected for my video game knowledge and skill). I could make friends, and kept them very close, but was still pretty distant. In late middle to early high school I was completely emo before emo was a word.
Then I grew out of it. I met a friend on the internet that to this day I can't properly describe the deep level of connection we made nor have I had another personal relationship like that. That was the first catalyst, but other things included finding a nice circle of video game playing friends through N64 Super Smash Bros and reading Herman Hesse's Steppenwolf that pretty accurately described the basis of my personality in the Treatise of the Steppenwolf section.
I became pretty friendly. I could make friends easily, and flirt, but I am pretty picky about the people I associate with and wouldn't approach just anyone.

This all changed again in my senior year of college when I realized I wouldn't be able to graduate on time and that I've spent most of my life drifting through things without ever really applying myself. All my hobbies are ones that apply to younger people, like anime, video games, and action figures so I was realizing it was getting harder to find people my age with similar interests. Since leaving home, I've proven to be very self-sufficient but unsatisfied with my personal relationships. Since I entered the world of full time cubicle work in the computer science field it has been harder for me to meet new women... especially given my choice of hobbies. I have tons of male friends but haven't had a girlfriend in 4-5 years. And it's not like I had difficulty with getting a girlfriend back when I could meet people that interested me in school and part-time work. Several times I've tried to accept the concept that I may very well be alone for the rest of my life and that there is no one eligible left for me.

My life isn't bad. I've got a good job, I'm good at what I do, I love where I live, and I've got a couple circles of real life friends to do stuff with. But I've grown bitter because all of my hobbies just serve to remind me that I am getting old and still holding on to childish things, that I wasted my youth when I could've done more with myself had I actually just exerted effort instead of following the flow, and I feel alone on a personal level.

I've got quite a skewed perspective on life and take amusement in almost everything. My only dreams left are to make something (movie, video game, book, cartoon, comic) someday that will inspire others like creative works inspired me when I was younger, and to find a woman to make happy and raise a family with. My fears are ceasing to exist and losing the ability to do things that I used to be able to (ie growing older). My wishes are immortality, to be able to relive my childhood, or to find my true companion and experience a relationship much like my one friend I had in high school (ironically her and I never did date due to the online thing)

Now get off my lawn, you kids

[AllenSmithee]

I was born into a family of three children, which ended up a family of five, and now seven. So, with my step-dad and mom, there are nine in a house.

And I've always been dead middle.

My dad is a bit of a junkie, and my mother and father divorced when I was around 5? I remember that day, where I first chewed my finger, a habit which I bleed for every day now, literally.

I guess as a middle child I've been constantly fighting for attention. Combine with an alcoholic father, with abusive tendencies, my views of leaders and father figures is a weird one. Its odd, that even after my dad moved out he's still let me down my entire life, promising me things he couldn't keep. I've always been manipulative, as a matter of fact, I've been told by my sister who is an addict that I show many addict tendencies.

Come to think of it, I guess I've had a kinda rough family life in that sense, but without my father around, I had a very loving single mother who is now remarried.

So, if you go with the nurture ideal, I've been nurtured to ADHD from my striving for attention, ODD for my need to rebel against guys trying to put their rule on me since my dad never taught me it was bad, and OCD from my never having a chance to keep my things my way with all my other siblings running around.

I'm a really sentimental guy, and I feel not a lot of people relate to me, which I try to get to happen. I've always felt it was sort of a situation where I need to tell about myself for someone to tell me about them, and yet, people don't really open up to me.

I've always felt like I'll never be the number one for anything, like I'll never be someone's best friend, but they'll be mine, or that I'll never be the best at a video game.

Of this, I'm content, but I want to some day over come this and become a great video game director.

I'm surprisingly jaded and cynical for my age, but I'm sure this isn't true since I'm too young to be like that, I believe.

The thing is I often hate guys who are greasy or like losers, because I've felt like I could be like them, but I'm obsessed with following certain social norms in a way. The thing is, it is like these guys are putting on a forced autism to me, however not true.

I feel that I obsess over my looks too much. I was known as a greasy ugly kid for so long, and I have very little self-esteem. I often make friends with women, but I never go any further than that and am stuck in a "friend zone" situation, no matter how much I'd want it to be otherwise.

I make crass jokes, even though I don't like them very much. I've always found that is the way to get people to laugh.

I find myself frustrated with the fact that the entire situation of the world is based on making other's laugh... I have trouble speaking, unless I'm writing, or am making jokes, but if shit gets serious, I choke up and make a pun or something. I can act well, so it goes to show I'm always wearing a mask, as much as I'd like otherwise.

I often wish for things I'll never have, and with insomnia I spend too much time thinking and getting depressed.

I've always been a weird kid for a while, and when I switched schools I was glad because I could leave my previous preconceptions and have a new start. However, now I'm getting new preconceptions, but I keep things positive thankfully and have many friends.

I'm really bipolar in my opinions on things, and often feel like I really just don't care regardless of what choice I think is true. I've always felt angry at gifted guys, y'know, because I'm smart, I just get lazy... and they're dicks. So what happens is I will often fight with them.

I'm not physically violent at all, and have been beaten up sometimes thinking that if I fight back they'll never get their karma.

Basically, all I'm good at is puns and drawing... It makes me sad. I feel like I will be phased out soon enough, and stuck as a third wheel for all.

I thrive on childhood memories and dreams of the future, so I really like stories that deal with this... I'd like to write something, or make a game or comic, but I'm obsessed with the idea of getting "good" before I can do it, or else I'm just a stupid teenager with a dumb dream.

Basically, I resent my age group, and I resent that I'm part of it. I've lived with a lot of hate for a very long time, and feel that I can't get people to understand me well.

I don't know what I am, or how I live my life come to think of it.

I spend too much time being lazy and working to my own goals than working on the goals society sets for me. I'm obsessed with achieving my own identity, to the point of refusing refusal of social norms and being stuck in a catch 22.

I try not to talk too much of video games and anime and such, in fear of being labelled as a weeaboo. I'm also scared of being autistic or somehow that I percieve as "lesser" (even though I know everybody is equel), even though I'm know I'm not suffering with that.

The closest I came to having a girlfriend I didn't make a move based on my own feelings that she would actually hate me and that I'm not good enough for her, and try to avoid that now with girls, and while I'm good with flirting, I'm not good at much more.

My older dream was living alone and going home to work on making my ideas come true, but later on I realized that being lonely isn't good.

I still don't want kids on account of having them basically makes people forget about me and forces me to give up my life to raise them.

I've realized many evils of humanity that people refuse to accept, but take them as a truth and not a bad-thing. Sometimes I think about severely hurting myself to get out of school, and I'll reference very dire things offhandedly.

I guess I'm just as fucked as all of us.

[Mutagene]

As much as I'd love to reply to this topic with my own wall of sorrow... my writing skills are still in their degraded state compared to a couple years ago, so this will be kept concise and not very comprehensible.

I'm the youngest of three siblings. Both my older siblings are sisters, and I was born to a different father than them, and much later. I don't remember much about my father, really. He was abusive to my sisters and mother as I grew up, but he always loved me. Even after my parents separated, I'd often stay at his apartment. But, I haven't seen him in about 12 or 13 years. Since then, my mother's remarried, and I've gone through a lot of shit.

Now I'm a socially-impaired, apathetic recluse with an addiction to music and video games. I've always had trouble in school, whether it's from being lazy or belligerent. I've had to defend myself multiple times from bullies due to my weight (I'm really not that fat anyway, everyone here's just an asshat) and supposed intelligence. I'm also a teacher's pet, and have very few friends among the students.

My parents are somewhat liberal with me, often letting me do whatever I want, but I have hardly been spoiled. I rarely ever get anything material from them outside of food, clothing, shelter, presents, and payment for work.

My main passion is music, one which has only recently bloomed. I love composing and do it often, but I'm a bit of a slacker when it comes to musicianship, and have very little formal training, thus giving me much trouble in regards to transcription. I'm also an avid game designer, having used the various RPG Maker tools for many years, and have been delicately crafting my brainchild project for nearly 3 years now.

I'm a pretty dirty person, but I realize I will probably never find someone to love in my lifetime. I do derive some solace from this fact by being unashamedly naughty outside of school and my family life, though.

My wish is to become a history professor, also composing, recording, and producing music in my spare time. As much as I dislike school because of how much it's ruined my life, there are few things more satisfying to me than teaching others about something I love, and I happen to be a HUGE history buff. Therefore, I hope to major in history (which category, I've not decided) once I'm finally able to attend college, and then go on to teach in a middle or high school, eventually attending a university again to obtain a Ph.D to teach in college.

... yes, I'm extremely ambitious. But my ambitions and creative drive are about the only things that have kept me from shooting myself in the head (apart from a lack of a gun), so yeah.

[Skeletore has a boner]

I was always "normal" always "popular" and always "successful".

I'm a chronic over-achiever and social butterfly, I'm a "Natural Born Leader" and have a very commanding "aura"(people, in real life at least, just seem to do what I tell them to), as such I've always been the organizer, the project lead, the manager, the owner, the guild-leader, whatever in *most* of my endeavors.

This of course is all just a facade to mask the fact that I'm a psychopath, and as such, am completely dead inside. I spent the greater part of my youth introverted until middle-school years when I decided I understood society enough to participate.

I will say that I find humans absolutely bizarre, and no matter how well I fit in, I am an emotional outsider, I'm not motivated by the same goals, same principles, or same feelings as "normal" people, I am nothing but an actor, a damn good one, but I can only pretend.

There are upsides, everything has a purpose, the goals you set for yourself are clear, you never need to question your intentions, your inner dialogue is completely unclouded. You're also predisposed towards excellence of the single most important life-skill... manipulating people(my training in linguistics and psychology is no coincidence ).

Most people truly do not understand how easy they are to manipulate, you can tell them right to their face that you're using them, and they'll still let it happen. It's like collective hubris, everyone thinks it doesn't work on them because they're unique, and that's exactly how they fall for it *every time*.

It opens an unlimited set of doors.

I'm working on my second PHD, run a very successful business(and have worked in most industries I cared to try), started a non-profit I'm quite fond of, and am looked up to by my peers, I'm also only 28.

Relationships are a little trickier, not because of any awkwardness, but because I'm just genuinely uninterested. Sex is nice but if I never had it again I wouldn't be bothered, most my relationships have started on some variant of this:

Girl: *blah blah blah* (I'm really not paying attention)
Me: Why do you keep talking to me? I'm busy.
Girl: Oh...I thought we had something going...
Me: (internal dialogue: How do you just assume we're in a relationship when one partner, me, is unaware?).

I apparently am an unconscious flirt.

Of course having others intentions bare open to you is somewhat of a downer, so-to-speak, "So when you say I'm funny, intelligent, and fun to be around, you really mean I'm Wealthy, got it".

There's more about my "life" than anyone ever wanted to know, based on past experiences very few people understand it either(statistically 0.8% of you!)

[Incog Neato]

May 19, 2010 12:47:13 GMT -5 mastermeow said:

Hm, interesting. Out of curiosity where are you two from if you don't mind my asking.

I am from Ontario, Canada -- just a few hours drive away from Smithee~! :D I believe there's another member here that lives closer to me.

There used to a member that lived in my city but he hasn't posted for months. :( (That's just a sign that I buried him properly! ........ :3)

I don't think you needed to know all of that. XD

Nuukou you remind me very much of my fiancee. I hope very much that one day you meet someone you can open up to and especially hope you do not lose faith in people.

Well, I completely connected with my ex. He's the sweetest guy and we have SO much in common and love (being in) each other's presence.

One thing I didn't mention was that he did propose to me but I never gave him an answer since I wasn't sure about myself and commitment due to everything else going on around me. :/

On an unrelated note~

Whee. I just love the fact that we don't have idiots on the board that come into these sort of topics to insult members about these sort of posts. ^.^~

As I said many times in the past, I <3 this forum. ^__^

[Ascended Mermaid]

*nods* It's THE friendliest online community I've ever had the pleasure of joining. When I freaked out a long time ago, because I thought I was being called out on something? I was kindof expecting to be banned. Believe me, when your only other hangouts were vgmusic and gamefaqs... well, you just don't expect such a warm reception.

[Incog Neato]

I always wonder why this particular forum just doesn't attract the morons that are in abundance in other places?

I guess one could argue that we are, on average, an older crowd but ....... dammit, I just realized that I have no examples of adult forums (like general, not pr0n XD) where immature people roam. ^^

So I guess it IS an age thing? D:

[Incog Neato]

May 19, 2010 23:52:17 GMT -5 Wyrdwad said:

Not everybody's old. Smithee's a young'n, but he fits in here just fine! He seems to annoy some of you on occasion, but hey, I do that too. Only awesome people annoy the ones they love. ;)

That's why I said it was on average. ^^

I WOULD say it's the maturity level around here but I think we're a pretty goofy bunch. XD Immature in a mature way!

OR! Maybe it's the fact that we have Netiquette of Awesome and respect the personal views of everyone!

[Ascended Mermaid]

That's right! I think we've all annoyed eachother at one point... at least once! I can admit I've had my annoying spells too.

[psybuster]

Just gonna bullet point this because I don't feel like writing too much.

-Pretty...gender neutral for lack of a better term.
-Always wanted a younger sister but never had one, so sometimes I treat a couple friends as if they were.
-Middling popularity in school: everybody knew me but I didn't necessarily feel a connection with (m)any of them.
-Genetic FAIL. Pretty much the straw that broke the camel's back in a decision to never have kids.
-Too picky with what I buy on the technology side, apparently not picky enough with what I eat.
-Immigrant Asian parents = massive culture clash.
-Had an epiphany the other day: buying myself a Wii was probably one of the worst decisions I ever made in retrospect; should've gotten myself a bike with that money...lol

[HJ]

I could post a huge wall of text detailing my bad life, but I'm not gonna do that. I'm extremely money-oriented and my sole ambition in life is to get rich. I feel like my own well-being and success takes precedence over everything else and, in most cases, I have no qualms at all about moving ahead at the expense of others, which should be obvious since I pirate pretty much everything I can. I wouldn't murder someone or something like that, though, I don't like getting my hands dirty. In my daily life I act easygoing and approachable because I was a loner once, and I realized that doesn't get you very far in the world, so I have many friends and I'm reasonably popular, but I'm still a loner at heart, and I don't really care about any of my friends deep down. I do have a girlfriend I care about, though, so I guess I'm not all bad.

Despite what it sounds like, I'm quite content with my life. Except for one thing: I need more money.

[Lunar]

May 19, 2010 23:47:28 GMT -5 Incog Neato said:

I always wonder why this particular forum just doesn't attract the morons that are in abundance in other places?

I guess one could argue that we are, on average, an older crowd but ....... dammit, I just realized that I have no examples of adult forums (like general, not pr0n XD) where immature people roam. ^^

So I guess it IS an age thing? D:

I'm kind of a jackass even here but I like this crowd more than most of the other places I go online so I tone it down alot. It shows sometimes though, it really does

Right now, I live at home.. I moved out of my last apartment in May and can't live in my new one til August so I'm sort of stuck here, which sucks because my hometown is reaally boring. It's a 20 minute drive from Atlanta though so I'm almost always doing something down there instead

I was really weird and pretty quiet in high school and partway through the first year of college, but I feel like I've come out of my shell since then. I still make bad first impressions with some because my sense of humor is pretty off but hey you can't win them all

Somehow I came into a job that pays more money than I know what to do with, so I'm socking most of it away so that I don't have to worry about making rent next year during school.

I've got a really nerdy side to myself(I just ordered Ys I Famicom and Fire Emblem: Monsho no Nazo on eBay and plan on going out this Sunday to find a copy of Excitebike that I can tear apart so I can play said Ys I), but honestly I don't even get time to play games as much as I used to. School, work and Atlanta life take up most of my day.

I used to be really out of shape, but I stopped eating fast food about a month ago and I've been running regularly, and it seems to be paying off

I hate talking about music with people IRL because I'm an insufferable elitist and I have a hard time turning that off even for the sake of keeping a good conversation going

[Yakra]

I don't really have, or have had a very epically amazing life. Just a very boring, happy one. :'D

Um.... let's see... I pretty much have a totally workaholic, sleep deprived life, especially when some show or the other is popping up. Trying to balance out work (paintings and me job at the university) with me hobbies, and even being forced to interact with the rest of the world and me friends leaves one often very sleepy (and cranky in the mornings). Despite all that though, I wouldn't have it anyway otherwise in the world. ...Well.... I could do with a bit more sleep.

As for my life from my elementary school time till now - in the way you all have described - I've always been a shy kid. Painfully shy. I covered that shyness up though with a great deal of (friendly?) arrogance and vanity, going around declaring that I was the bestest thing on earth till..... everyone believed me? X'D So.... as shy as I may have been, I was pretty happy. I was one of those who had to be friends with everyone and always worked hard with being... the second best? (Because being the best always brought TOO many expectations. X'D)

Since I was terribly concerned about my image though, somehow, I never really had the courage to declare me interest in creating worlds, characters and stories, and me love for video games in middle school. One was quite afraid one would be regarded as an utter nerd. (Which I am. ) Well.... until highschool. Somehow with two of my closest friends moving away, with their families posted to different countries, and me having discovered the wonderful wonder of Final Fantasy Tactics, I pretty much slowly (but still abruptly), just.... shifted into my true recluse self? One pretty much stopped worrying about one's kiddy fears about image and all, and just happily sank deeper into my own world and stories and games. And......... I think somewhere along the way the huge ego of 'I'm the best!' also slipped away.

Ah.... and until all this time, I had always declared that 'I would want to be an artist when I grow up!'. But then A Levels happened. And I took art as one of my subjects. And me god, how I grew to HATE to draw. To top it off, I hated it so much, and I think it showed too, that.... one actually failed that dratted subject. Around that time I pretty much decided I loved the French language and.... go study and specialize in that. X'D Unfortunately, I had bragged so much that I would like to go and enter a certain art university, that.... when the time came and I had to decide what to do, I was pretty much forced by my own dratted ego to go and apply. And one did. And I aimed to fail. Unfortunately I got in at the first try, full scholarship too (so not much of an excuse to not go :'D).

So.... off I was forced to go, since this university was in another city, having said teary goodbyes to my family and PS2 and my very very sheltered life. In a way, this probably was the best thing ever, because despite a miserably mopey first year, I guess I pretty much mainly grew up there.

And here I am now. X'D That very same university I studed in opened a new campus in the city adjoined to the one I live in, and asked me to join their faculty last year. So.... that's where I am now.

I guess I've pretty much had a thankfully very lucky and nice life? All the stuff I wanted to do, happened, and the people I've met in life have been the nicest ever. So.... as big a hermit and as anti-social as I may be, I'm terribly grateful to me friends for always pulling me along and making me do all the stuff I should.

(The only thing that I just hate about myself is my woeful memory - as time has passed, I slowly keep forgetting the names of all I've met. )

Oh yes~! And I'm still painfully shy. These days though, unlike the arrogance of old, or just being unable to say anything at all, I end up covering it up by babbling EVEN more, non stop. :'D

Wall of (boring) text!

[AllenSmithee]

No, no. It isn't boring, Yakra.

I think it is very interesting and sweet! It makes me want to remember to keep my goals, somehow I'll reach them. Hopefully nicely, like with you, but if there's a struggle? I'll be damned, I'll fight for what I want.

I'm kinda like Mutagene I guess, in that my main thing to live for is to reach my dreams. But here's the real kicker: What does anyone live for? You're born, so you might as well. But then you realize, God granted you life (I know some of you Atheist guys are around, so uhh, sperm granted you life! ), so why not make the most of it, no? That's my view.

I dunno, I'm spiritualistic, not really religious. Why force myself to one thing? Any God or Deity could be the wrong or right one, so I just respect them all and believe in them all. Who knows! I think that if we have a God out there who's fair whatsoever, we'll get our shot to go to heaven, or for a fancy dancy reincarnation.

As for politics... I don't really care about politics. I don't care if I align myself with Left, Right, Central, who gives a damn. To me! To me. To me~ all that matters is that somebody up top isn't a tyrant and that people have rights.

Why vote for all of this inconsequential stuff, when every party is acting stupid? Either way, there'll be good AND bad, and that's okay with me.

[Skeletore has a boner]

May 19, 2010 23:23:14 GMT -5 Incog Neato said:

May 19, 2010 12:47:13 GMT -5 mastermeow said:

Hm, interesting. Out of curiosity where are you two from if you don't mind my asking.

I am from Ontario, Canada -- just a few hours drive away from Smithee~! :D

I live right on the NY/Ontario border in Lewiston(Niagara Fallsish area).

We're border buddies @.@