I haven't been able to find a steady job after years of looking. I'm disabled, but the US government won't support me. I can't drive because of my anxiety issues. I can't afford a passport, let alone transportation to another country. My parents won't support me emotionally or financially. I get $30 a week or less for food and often have to skip meals because my parents don't make enough for me. I take 3 anti-depressants and an anxiety medicine that cost $200 a month, in addition to bi-monthly psychiatric visits that cost $65 per session. My health insurance alone is over $600 a month. I tried college, but I was so severely stressed that I was forced to drop out after a month and a half of failing. I can't afford music school because the tuition rates in the US are exorbitant beyond belief.
My friend told me to seek refuge in Canada, but from what I've read I'd either need support from a Canadian citizen or the ability to get to the border. I can't even drive across town without freaking out, let alone across the country. Does anyone know if there's anything I could do to keep me from just killing myself?
I agree as well, speaking as someone who once claimed to be disabled and had applied for disability in the past. I'm not saying that your case is like mine; ESID. If you can relate, however, you can find that it's mind over matter -- it's something you can accomplish by working against everything you think you are. In fact, forget who you think you are, and just be. You might surprise yourself what you can accomplish -- there could be some real hidden potential.
I echo Red's sentiment, we're here for you. Hang in there!
But yes, it's all about identifying the core of the problem rather than worry about the superficial results of it. Bad direction the commonly accessible medical science is going; pill it up and call it good.
"And indeed, this is proof-- Proof that it was as companions we travelled." -Alwen